Thursday, September 18, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Dads
As I was out cruising the streets of Parkland this morning I took notice of this: Dads. It just so happens that I often drive down 112th around the time the bus comes to pick up all the kiddos for school. At many stops there is a tired mom, maybe two, waiting with their kids and neighbor kids for the bus to come. Most excellent. But it is one corner in particular that keeps catching my eye.
At this corner there are always 2-3 men out there waiting with their children. For reasons I cannot quite articulate, this makes me happy. I guess I'm glad there are at least dads in the picture for these kids. That and the dads themselves actually look well... maybe not happy, but not bad. (Picture Hank Hill standing out on the curb with the guys, just kinda... hanging there. Probably not the highlight of their day, but certainly nothing to complain about.)
Anyway, not too sure where I was going with this. Just neat to see some male figures around the wee ones.
At this corner there are always 2-3 men out there waiting with their children. For reasons I cannot quite articulate, this makes me happy. I guess I'm glad there are at least dads in the picture for these kids. That and the dads themselves actually look well... maybe not happy, but not bad. (Picture Hank Hill standing out on the curb with the guys, just kinda... hanging there. Probably not the highlight of their day, but certainly nothing to complain about.)
Anyway, not too sure where I was going with this. Just neat to see some male figures around the wee ones.
Forgive me!
I did not realize just how long it had been since I posted something worth reading! My apologies.
Get comfy folks- here is an update!
I am sure that all of you know that enjoy a good drink. I tend to enjoy it even more when it is followed immediately by at least 3 or 4 more good drinks. I enjoy it so much that I partake in multiple drinks damn near every day and while it is pretty cool to be able to keep up with professional drinkers such as my old roommates, I don't know that constantly being blitzed is a good look for me.
Just shy of a month ago I told myself and a few others that I was going to try my best to cut back. That lasted a grand total of about 48 hours. Since I failed at that, I adopted a "fuck it" attitude... who says I need to stop drinking anyway? I do not drink and drive. I do not get trashed and do (too many) stupid things. I do not pass out on sidewalks, lawns, or other people's beds. I've never been late to work or other commitments because of a hangover. So whats the big deal?
Well, turns out just because I'm not out starting fights with the locals, does not necessarily mean I'm not hurting people. People I care very deeply about. So about two weeks ago I made a more serious effort to stop/cut back significantly. Hip-hip-hooray I made it 5 days without a drink! Not much for many of you, but considering I've been drinking on a very regular basis since Junior year of high school... um, five days is big. On day five I had a shot, then went about 5 more days without drinking. I am simply stoked to know that I can do it! That is ten days without so much as a buzz.
I guess my fear was that I would not be able to make it even a couple days. But I did, and I think in doing so it kinda snapped my body out of "must drink" mode. I have momentarily given up on complete abstinence of alcohol, but I can honestly say that this is the least I have drank in years. It feels good.... which is weird. I did not think it would feel good. I am not a confrontational person. At all. I avoid conflict like the plague and this includes coming face to face with my own fears, problems, demons, insecurities, etc. I quite enjoy what alcohol does to my demons. It makes them shut up for a minute. But now that I am actually looking my problems in the face I am seeing that they really aren't as scary as I had let them become. How neat is that?!
In these last few weeks I have had some truly wonderful and enlightening conversations about addictions (of all shapes and sizes). I am lucky to be surrounded by some pretty fantastic individuals- all with their own stories and thoughts on what makes people tick. I am the recipient of some pretty insightful pearls of wisdom. Is it not incredible that by tweaking your perspective or bringing your awareness elsewhere, an entire situation can be transformed?
Well, thats that for now. Thanks for reading all.
Get comfy folks- here is an update!
I am sure that all of you know that enjoy a good drink. I tend to enjoy it even more when it is followed immediately by at least 3 or 4 more good drinks. I enjoy it so much that I partake in multiple drinks damn near every day and while it is pretty cool to be able to keep up with professional drinkers such as my old roommates, I don't know that constantly being blitzed is a good look for me.
Just shy of a month ago I told myself and a few others that I was going to try my best to cut back. That lasted a grand total of about 48 hours. Since I failed at that, I adopted a "fuck it" attitude... who says I need to stop drinking anyway? I do not drink and drive. I do not get trashed and do (too many) stupid things. I do not pass out on sidewalks, lawns, or other people's beds. I've never been late to work or other commitments because of a hangover. So whats the big deal?
Well, turns out just because I'm not out starting fights with the locals, does not necessarily mean I'm not hurting people. People I care very deeply about. So about two weeks ago I made a more serious effort to stop/cut back significantly. Hip-hip-hooray I made it 5 days without a drink! Not much for many of you, but considering I've been drinking on a very regular basis since Junior year of high school... um, five days is big. On day five I had a shot, then went about 5 more days without drinking. I am simply stoked to know that I can do it! That is ten days without so much as a buzz.
I guess my fear was that I would not be able to make it even a couple days. But I did, and I think in doing so it kinda snapped my body out of "must drink" mode. I have momentarily given up on complete abstinence of alcohol, but I can honestly say that this is the least I have drank in years. It feels good.... which is weird. I did not think it would feel good. I am not a confrontational person. At all. I avoid conflict like the plague and this includes coming face to face with my own fears, problems, demons, insecurities, etc. I quite enjoy what alcohol does to my demons. It makes them shut up for a minute. But now that I am actually looking my problems in the face I am seeing that they really aren't as scary as I had let them become. How neat is that?!
In these last few weeks I have had some truly wonderful and enlightening conversations about addictions (of all shapes and sizes). I am lucky to be surrounded by some pretty fantastic individuals- all with their own stories and thoughts on what makes people tick. I am the recipient of some pretty insightful pearls of wisdom. Is it not incredible that by tweaking your perspective or bringing your awareness elsewhere, an entire situation can be transformed?
Well, thats that for now. Thanks for reading all.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Free to a good home
Mini-fridge.
Filled to the brim with memories.
If you frequented my old house on Wheeler you most likely drank beer from its frosty goodness.
Please take it off my hands!
Filled to the brim with memories.
If you frequented my old house on Wheeler you most likely drank beer from its frosty goodness.
Please take it off my hands!
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
"Jesus says the darndest things"
Just wanted to let you all know I'm still around. Don't stop checking the blog, I promise to actually write something soon. Be patient folks.
Friday, August 29, 2008
:0)
Smiling Now Primarily Used To Communicate Anger
NEW YORK—The smile, a facial expression traditionally used to convey joy, pleasure, or amusement, is now mainly used to suppress rage, according to a five-year study released Monday by the Countenance Institute. "More than 85 percent of smiles are involuntary responses to mounting anger," the study read in part. "In addition, the length and intensity of these smiles directly correspond to the amount of anger the smile is concealing. A smile that lasts less than two seconds represents just a passing annoyance, while a smile of four to eight seconds indicates a genuine hatred for its target." The study noted that individuals smiling for more than one minute while nodding and baring their teeth are most likely preparing to kill the person they are smiling at.
Snakes dont walk, they slither... so there.
Greetings!
This is exactly what I am watching right now... Neat!
How much do I love youtube? THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS much!
This is exactly what I am watching right now... Neat!
How much do I love youtube? THIIIIIIIIIIIIIIS much!
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
*scowl*
Please help me figure out how to create links within my blog.
copy+paste sometimes does the trick but it appears as this long drawn out line of meaninglessness. I want to turn a word neon green and when you CLICK on the neon green word, it takes you to the wikipedia page about the history, uses of, current meaning, and political undertones of the color.
I will try to demonstrate my frustration- and in doing so, it just might work. Kinda like the light that is always on or the obvious rattle in your car and when you finally take it to the manufacturer, the light turns off and the engine creates a soothing, consistent huummmmmmm. Go figure.
There is a cute little button resembling the offspring of a chain link fence and Mario Brother's, Yoshi. It says "insert link"
Lets try. I would like to link you kind folks to a tapestry I am particularly fond of. Here it goes.
Yuck. Even if it works, its ugly.
Now, underneath the "Title" of my blog there is a "Link" section. WTF? I clicked "learn more" and I learned absolutely nothing more. The liars!
Help me out Blog gurus.
Help me. For I am a http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/dumbass
copy+paste sometimes does the trick but it appears as this long drawn out line of meaninglessness. I want to turn a word neon green and when you CLICK on the neon green word, it takes you to the wikipedia page about the history, uses of, current meaning, and political undertones of the color.
I will try to demonstrate my frustration- and in doing so, it just might work. Kinda like the light that is always on or the obvious rattle in your car and when you finally take it to the manufacturer, the light turns off and the engine creates a soothing, consistent huummmmmmm. Go figure.
There is a cute little button resembling the offspring of a chain link fence and Mario Brother's, Yoshi. It says "insert link"
Lets try. I would like to link you kind folks to a tapestry I am particularly fond of. Here it goes.
Yuck. Even if it works, its ugly.
Now, underneath the "Title" of my blog there is a "Link" section. WTF? I clicked "learn more" and I learned absolutely nothing more. The liars!
Help me out Blog gurus.
Help me. For I am a http://en.wiktionary.org/wiki/dumbass
Friday, August 22, 2008
Falling back in love
I am currently soaking up all that is "Blackwater Coffee" on 9th and Fawcett. Great people, fun orange mugs, type writers, local magazines, chill music, eye catching strangers, and *drum roll please...* internet.
Thanks a gazillion to you Lance for introducing me to such a fine establishment not so many years ago.
So you may be curious- since I am obviously not writing extensive posts in my new found internet time, just what AM I doing?
Perusing UrbanOutfitters. While I find their clothing nice, I find their furnishings kick ass and relatively cheap. I have about eight things in my "shopping cart." (Dont worry mom, I've not purchased a thing... just really really wanting to is all) Check it out for yourself if you dont believe me!
Thanks a gazillion to you Lance for introducing me to such a fine establishment not so many years ago.
So you may be curious- since I am obviously not writing extensive posts in my new found internet time, just what AM I doing?
Perusing UrbanOutfitters. While I find their clothing nice, I find their furnishings kick ass and relatively cheap. I have about eight things in my "shopping cart." (Dont worry mom, I've not purchased a thing... just really really wanting to is all) Check it out for yourself if you dont believe me!
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